Monday, February 6, 2012

Good Friday (for Dad)

It seems like a misnomer
at first,
or a bit of black humor…

“Good” Friday….

the day when betrayal
came with a kiss;

the day when the seconds were marked
by whip-cracks,
and hammers tolled
like bells;

the day that clouds closed
like eyelids over a dying sun;

the day the earth shook
as if in a sieve.

And now
(as if it wasn’t
“good”
enough already),
it is also the day
you died.

A tomb sealed with a stone…
A coffin nailed shut…
A grave covered with dirt…

The good news is

this is as dark as it gets.




"For God, who said, 'Let light shine out of darkness,' made his light shine in our hearts to give us the light of the knowledge of the glory of God in the face of Christ" (2 Cor. 4:6).  

Wednesday, November 30, 2011

Waiting for Snow


“WHAT A GYP!!”

With raised fist and gnarled face
I accuse the skies.

I have been waiting for snow,
wishing for snow,
praying, hoping, and fishing for snow.

I have been daring snow,
oh where-ing snow, and
(for reverse psychology’s sake)
not-give-a-care-ing snow.

All this and not one single flake.

But as my fist drops and my eyes come back to earth,
I sigh,
“God knows best.”
And this is the proof:
that between the second coming
and the fall of man,
I can get so worked up about something
like the weather,
and can fill a book with idle words
by which to be judged.
(Did I say not one single flake?
Well, there might be one here…)

Yet, I believe you understand.
I believe you do not think it petty
to be a man,
or to care for the sparrow,
or to pour artistry
into the icy iron-work
whose feathery falling
makes winter crunch deliciously
like the year’s dessert.

For this season
you precipitated:
spirit crystallized as flesh,
deity danced where the wind willed—
out from its cloudy veil,
down through empty skies,
and into arms that waited

faithfully.

Thursday, July 21, 2011

The Wind and the Shadows

Around 2:00 AM
I hear the wind roaring
as it brawls
with anything and everything
in its path.

God knows where that came from.

For awhile I try to ignore it
and go back to sleep.
But after half an hour,
I give up
and go to the kitchen
for a glass of water.

On the way back to bed
I pause in the living room,
which seems to glower
in the moonlight
shining through the windows.

It’s been a long night.

Since I can’t sleep
I sit down on the couch.

Outside,
the wind rages
and rounds on itself
in the dark,
filling the room with
shadows
that hold my gaze
as they lash out
and gesture furiously.

Monday, May 16, 2011

Hymne to God the Father*

Before time
            your counsels chose
            that you would lose
eternal ties
            with your one
            and only Son.

Not sparing Him,
            you let the whips
            fall and the blood drip.
Judges condemned
            as the priests quipped.

On a dark hill,
            like Abraham,
            you left your Lamb.
No bright angel
            unveiled a ram

snared in thickets
            by its horns.
            Instead, the thorns
on Christ’s head caught
            the sacrifice
            of God’s own life.

Nails split
            His wrists and feet
            and severed sweet
communion, which
            left you bereaved.

Not even birth
            pangs compare to
            what you went through
at your Son’s death.
            Abba, thank you.




*The form of this poem was borrowed from Hymne to God the Father by Ben Jonson.
 See Ben Jonson's poem here:  http://4umi.com/jonson/hymn


Saturday, January 15, 2011

Triptych: A Tree in Three Seasons


I.

Atop a hill there is a weathered oak
whose listless limbs spread so wide it seems
to hang by them and not to stand.  It’s bark
is scarred by whips of wind, by scratching beasts,
by birds that pierce its trunk with beaks.  When fall
arrives, a crimson stain spreads to all
the leaves.  They slowly trickle down beneath
a blanching sky, and then, leaf by leaf,
their reddish carpet covers up the ground.
It seems that with the leaves a peace descends.
The breeze breathes a sigh, perhaps relieved
and ready to forget how summer lived
intemperately.  But seasons change.  Amends
are made.  What was before cannot be found.


II.

Like a single, massive stone, clouds
roll in heavily overhead, sealing
everything in the darkened earth.  Stealing
downward, ashen snowflakes fill the ground.
Hours later, the landscape is buried
under whitish mounds.  The oak tree’s
limbs, covered in snow, slowly ossify
in the breathless, frozen air.  Nearby,
icicles curl over a stream, gripping
its banks like the fingers of a glass
skeleton.  The sun turns its vacant stare 
on the clouds, helpless to move them.  Everywhere,
silence keeps its secrets, and the days pass.
Winter is here: grave, still, and waiting.



III.

Early morning—like the first day
of creation—waits in dark mystery
for the light.  The dawn paints gradually
on its black canvass: first gray,
then color returns to the world’s
face like a man reviving.  All
winter long, the land has drunk the cold,
melting snow.  Underground, in small
gaps and crevices, things sprout and grow,
nourished by the runoff.  Flora raises
above ground, beyond the earth’s hold.
Limbs outstretched, the oak stands in bold
relief, suddenly shot through with the sun’s rays,
which crown spring and renew everything below.

Saturday, July 17, 2010

Crux

Here—
where clouds overhead
and crowds at your feet
thicken into an untimely
darkness—
you can’t tell
miracle from murder,
blessing from curse,
God from your enemy.

Here—
where vultures overhead
and priests at your feet
circle, waiting for a
body—
you can’t tell
mystery from mockery,
life from death,
wine from blood.

Here,
beams, bones,
paths, purposes,
swords and fingers
cross;
“X” marks the spot
where you hang,
and
all you know is

you are
here.

Wednesday, March 3, 2010

Grief

Stepping out for a walk,
I see the fog is back.

You never know when it will come,
when the clouds will settle heavily,
blocking out the sun
from the sky to the ground.

It rolls in softly.

Almost before you notice,
it permeates everything,
and the chill is beneath your skin.

When will it lift?
No one can say.
As it comes, it goes.

It always evaporates
after awhile.
The last particles of mist
sparkle as they dance
and sublimate in the sun.

Until then,
I’ll just have to walk
in it,
keeping the company
of the silhouettes
that appear, memory-like,
in the vapor.