Saturday, November 21, 2009
Rise and Shine
Tuesday, June 16, 2009
Waking & Sleeping (for Dad)
It was like so many other times
I’d seen you sleeping—
on the couch after dinner;
with a baby on your chest;
on a lawnchair in the back yard.
Of course, you weren’t so thin then.
Your body wasn’t gnawed away by cancer.
Still, it wasn’t so different
with your head slightly cocked
and your hands resting on your chest.
The real difference
will be in the waking.
You won’t yawn and reach for the remote;
you won’t stretch and scratch;
you won’t roll out of your chair
to grab a cold one.
This time,
you will wake
where no eye has seen;
you will wake suddenly from troubled dreams
only to find yourself safe
in the secret dark,
arms enfolding you.Monday, May 25, 2009
Once More (for Dad)
I learn that a friend had twins yesterday,
a year after her mother died.
As I go my way, I smile.
My mind drifts
to a scene
of grass and flowers growing back
at time-lapse speed
over a grave site.
What is mortal
is swallowed up by life.
My own father’s death
is just a few weeks past.
The ground by his headstone
is still broken and churning,
hard clods lay on top
like fists,
and though the dirt was replaced
the hole remains,
a scar in the grass.
But the spring rains will come.
With the whispered hush of their falling
they will wash and settle
the churning ground.
Even the clods will soften
and open.
Underneath,
roots will mend
their torn fabric;
shoots will find their way up
through the broken places,
and flowers will lift their faces to the sun
Tuesday, May 12, 2009
Crying in the Wilderness
or should we expect someone else?”
That day by the river—
in front of God and everyone—
I pointed at him
like I was leading the cavalry
and cried out,
“Look!! The Lamb of God
who takes away the sin of the world!”
Later,
as my disciples were leaving by droves
to follow him,
I braced myself,
and explained to one of the few remaining,
“He must increase, and I must decrease.”
I believed it…I believed it…
I believed it so much
it was my undoing.
And because I believed it,
everyone else started believing it.
But now,
the dead air grips my bones
with both hands
and shakes the cage of my ribs.
Now,
the stench of wasting humanity
makes my head spin
like a busted compass.
Now,
in the twilight of my heart,
it’s either him
or me,
and I need to be sure.
Sunday, March 8, 2009
Rise and Shine
bubbling and puffing,
the clink of dishes,
feet thumping overhead,
the hiss of butter or bacon
on a hot pan…
Morning sounds,
like sprites,
hovered around my head,
until I was drawn from sleep
by their spell.
But it was the laughter,
the voices
spry with conversation,
that finally got me out of bed
and bounding up the stairs
from my grandparents’ basement.
What jokes had I missed?
What stories or discussions?
Had an aunt or uncle stopped by
with cousins in tow?
I didn’t know it then,
but now I can see
the face of God
behind the smiles of relatives,
the shadow of communion
in the buttered toast and jam,
the resurrection and the life
as I woke from sleep
and found the arms of grandma
or grandpa
open
and waiting.
Thursday, February 19, 2009
Frame of Reference
Of all her paintings, my favorite
depicts a dirt road in an autumn wood.
The road stretches out straight ahead
from the foreground
and leads to a weathered gate
in the center of the painting.
Beyond the gate,
the road curves off to the right
and disappears into
orange, green, and gold foliage.
For years I’ve looked at this painting
and wondered:
Is the viewer arriving somewhere
or leaving?
If arriving or leaving, where?
I could ask my grandma these things
but she’s dying.
Once
I was drawing a picture,
and one of the trees
wouldn’t entirely fit
on the page.
Grandma said
I shouldn’t try to make it fit.
She said the picture you’re painting
is always bigger
than the canvas,
and you have to let things go
beyond
the field of view.
As I look
at the road in the wood again,
grandma’s words return to me.
The answers to my questions
can’t be found within
the frame
but lie outside it
where the road leads.
Monday, February 16, 2009
Arise Beautiful One
“I tell you the truth, a time is coming and has now come
when the dead will hear the voice of the Son of God
and those who hear will live.
Arise, my darling, my beautiful one, and come with me.
See! The winter is past; the rains are over and gone.
For as the Father has life in himself,
so he has granted the Son to have life in himself.
Flowers appear on the earth; the season of singing has come,
the cooing of doves is heard in our land.
The fig tree forms its early fruit;
the blossoming vines spread their fragrance.
I am the resurrection and the life.
He who believes in me will live.
Arise, come my darling;my beautiful one, come with me.”
(SOS 2:10-13; John 5:25, 26; 11:25)